I've been thinking about this post for a while now.
How to get back into blogging without making up some lame-ass fake excuse as to why I stopped blogging...how about some truth.
I have always been very wary as to what people think of me, never wanting to disappoint, come across big headed, snobby, vain even, but somehow those labels gravitate towards you when you begin blogging.
I enjoyed making the content for my blog but once I hit send, huge twangs of anxiety hit..but why?!
The online community is such a supportive one, with people writing genuinely lovely comments about me what i'm wearing, or just even sparking up conversation with me - I couldn't speak highly enough about the online community.
It's when i'm talking face to face to the people around me about blogging, that is when I feel most judged. Creating all these view's and opinions in my head that they may or may not have of me for blogging, and the anxiety starts all over again.
Doubts creep into my mind and I begin avoiding blogger because it's easier to ignore a passion of mine rather than set off the anxiety train.
Anxiety is something that so many young people around me suffer from and it sucks. There is still such a stigma around it, but it is getting better out there, and realistically that is one of the reasons that maybe I was able to be more open with myself about it - The fact that I do struggle and that sometimes I do need a bit of help, and thats okay.
At the age of 22, i've turned a page. I've spoken to doctors about my anxiety and ocd and I am moving forward. I've even booked a one way ticket to Australia for later on in the year...(definitely raised the anxiety levels booking that one)
But i'm doing it for me, and thats what excites me the mosts..I suppose its my new motto "doing it for me"
Thats where blogging comes back into it, fuck everyone else.. i'm doing it for me, if people want to judge, judge away - i'd like to think i'm in a place now where I can turn a blind eye. If people read my blog great, cheers thank you very much but this is just really an online outlet for me. Writing about things I enjoy, fashion beauty and travel really being up there on the list.
So here goes, CandidlyChloe3.0..lets do this..for me.
